I haven't written in this blog for a long time.  Think I want to start using it more.  No one reads it.  No one even knows it exists.  But it's here, taking up a nanospot in cyberspace.
Mickey Lou is on my lap purring.  I feel relatively relaxed.  Enjoyed a day of eating and shopping with a friend who I had lost touch with for a while.  That's one good thing that came out of the beating I took at the hands of a police officer...it led to her contacting me.  :)
Yep, I got my ass beat by a po po.  Bastard.  I'll write more on this later.
I also now have breast cancer, and am contemplating refusing some of the suggested procedures/treatments.  I've just been through too much in my life.  Since the diagnosis a couple months ago there have been 2 more deaths in my life...a good friend's mother (who I felt close to) died of a brain tumor.  And my sweet cousin Jeff died in a car accident (they believe he had a seizure and went off the road).  Then the cop incident.  Damn.  I just need my life to chill out a bit.  I swear I've seen more death than most people twice my age.  And isn't one cancer and a couple near death experiences enough for me???  I've already done 2 marathons & 2 century rides for the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society.  I don't really feel like doing a walk for breast cancer.  Damn.
I just want to travel.  See and do interesting things.  Meet interesting people.  Help people.  Help animals & nature.   I want to save lives.  But good god...how do I continue to keep saving my own?  It's exhausting.  It ain't easy bein' CG!  I wish I had a loved one.  Just someone to hold me every day.  Do I really need all of this sorrow & solitude to be an artist?  a writer?  Damn.
Damn.
Damn.
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