...and I'm blown away by the amount of work they've been able to create in their life time and the amount of traveling they've done to make a presence with their art around the world. It makes me feel so small, weak, and useless. It makes me upset that I've been plagued by so many health problems for the majority of my life, and how that takes a toll on my financial stability--how I have to work harder than most to make less to get by. Maybe I should be upset that I'm not a man? Because a healthy man can travel the globe and get by without certain accommodations that I wouldn't be able to. Today, I feel like shit. Headache and then some. I napped and I feel nauseous. My insides are burning. My mind wants to do so much, my body doesn't always cooperate. $ is not there and bankruptcy is likely around the corner. I wish I could lead a life of creativity. I wish I could live a life of love. I wish I could make an impact. I wish I didn't have health problems. But here I am in my pajamas feeling like shit. Feeling small. Feeling powerless.
boo hoo
We all have our days, so I'm not going to apologize for my whining. I will say...I am not jealous (maybe envious) of C215, in fact I admire him and the many others who do what he does. I'm grateful for the Internet and photography, so that I can be the arm chair traveler. But shit damn...I've lived through so much and I just feel like I need to do something HUGE!
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